and so fell lord perth

i return.

when i started this blog, i thought, "hey, i can be funny and witty and people will like me. i can be cool, too!"

not that that happened, but i did get some funny responses and some good lines in.

but i fogot to notice that i was using the blog as a method of change. i could test ideas, clear out my mind, even solicit opinion through my digitial kingdom.

then i figured i got to a point where that was not what i needed. and i abandoned you.

but i realize i need you back. i need to write. i don't know why, but i need to write. even if it is nothing but ramblings and incohorent thoughts, i need to create prose. maybe someday, i could eek out a survival based on it, but for now it will just be a tool to survive.

and survive i must.

ba-da-da ba-da-da ba-da-da

right now, i'm trying to balance school, work, the woman and friends all at once. and i'll admit, the friends take backseat most of the time. is it because i know they'll be understanding about it? or is it because i'm an insensitive jerk who doesn't really care. little columbine a, little columbine b.

i'm making friends in my classes at worcester state. or the other students are talking to me and not shying away from my horribly disfigured face (the side burns are getting massive). i'm doing well in classes, i'm trying to keep up with the homeworks, i think i'm doing pretty good. anything over 3.0 for the semester and i'll be happy.

for my education classes, i have to observe some high school classes to get an understanding of what really goes on there. kids today are just extreme punks.
more on this later, cuz i have pages (pages!) of material for this one.

dark tower V comes out next tuesday. i'm giddy with anticipation.

ba-da-da ba-da-da ba-da-da

not much for right now, but reger is back.

i'm going to read everybody's blogs again, open that piece of my little world again.

i'm going to write random stuff about me, the world and our existence.

i'm going to bitch about people, sports teams and television commericials.

i'm going to try to connect everything together and discover the meaning of life is freshbaked bread with butter melting on it warming my tummy.

i'm going to do it all for me.