mortgages

c and i went to a home buying seminar last night over at the complex across the street.
it was only this indian couple and us.

but it was informative.
i realized i basically knew nothing about buying a home.

the whole time i also kept having this feeling of nausea because i fear i farked up my credit so bad that i'm screwing myself now. even though it has been years since i had bad credit practices, the past has come back to haunt me.

i also found out the racket that the closing cost system is.

and finally, i realized that i have no where near the maturity to handle buying a home. i am going to freak out like a tweaker when i have to sign those papers.

please, God, let me win the lottery so this is not a problem.